My heart is sick….

Friday, October 9th, 2009

I’m so sorry I couldn’t post any outfit pictures for a while but I’m sick….especially my heart. It’s sinking faster and faster and I can’t stop it. My eyes are red and swollen, my nose stuffy, my hair is all sweaty and my body is limp. I feel like dying. I’ve cried so many times….I lost count. I’ve lost sleep….I can’t concentrate…I’m nervous and restless. I’m so confused that I’m going crazy. I fall asleep with tears in my eyes. All because of a guy. And I still love him.

And I just hope I don’t have to cry anymore…..


66 responses to “My heart is sick….”

  1. Denise says:

    oh honey.

    wish i could say the right words….

    but we're here.
    one day it'll feel better. trust me.

  2. LumpexoHoliczka says:

    🙁

    sead

  3. Sher says:

    oh dear…i'm so so sorry

    my heart truly goes out to you, wish I could give you a hug…

    one day soon, the wound in your heart will heal…take care,dear…

  4. FrouFrouu says:

    Sorry to hear you're feeling down lovely, all I can say is that things WILL get better with time. 🙁 Take care of yourself Shin x

  5. Sweet Things says:

    big hug:****

    now i feel sad too:(

  6. Anonymous says:

    it fucking sucks and noone gets it. its been a year and i still cry every night only because we are still friends. so my advice is to try and let go asap because it just gets harder, no good for your health. xxx

  7. daisychain says:

    I'm sorry sweetheart,
    we're here for you
    xxx

  8. zupu says:

    Oh I'm so sorry my dear.. we have all been there..

    I wish you feel better soon. You know the thing is that it passes, now you have to let yourself be sad and at the same time think positive and pamper yourself!!! Indulge all the ice cream and chocolate with good wine and buy yourself a new bag and gorgeous perfume.. anything to make yourself to feel better!

    Tanto coraggio cara mia!

  9. Cindy Khor says:

    when we all fall in love, we are bound to get hurt all the times, the most important thing would be learning how to stand up again and how to love again. and i'm pretty sure that after this terrible ordeal, there would be a happier occassion to make you feel like you are the happiest person in the world (and i do know what i'm talking about cuz i always face similar things with my boyfriend and sometimes would even wish that i never fall in love).

    just stay strong till that happy moment comes and every heart break would be so worthwhile.

  10. Brigadeiro says:

    Oh, dear Shin. My heart goes out to you, I know things will definitely get better, and as I used to constantly remind myself: today that seems so sad & bitter, will be tomorrow's yesterday.

    Hope you get to 'tomorrow' very soon.

    Big hugs,
    CC

  11. Cafe Fashionista says:

    "No guy is worth your tears; and when you find one that is, he won't make you cry."

    I'm so sorry that you're hurting right now. I truly wish there were something I could do to make you feel better. Please know that we are all here for you to listen and help. 🙂

  12. Wanderlusting says:

    Awwww honey. We've all been there – I know nothing makes things better right now but just know you aren't alone. I was in your shoes many MANY times and I can promise you things do work out.

    *big hugs*

    Feel better soon!! If you need to bitch about men, believe me…I know! Write me!

    Lusty

  13. Fashionista says:

    aww…hope you'll feel better!!! We all going thru something like that at some point in life! He is definitely doesn't deserve you!!! Be strong!!!
    love,
    fashionista

  14. jameson ruth says:

    losing boys that you view as perfect is hard. you just have to remind yourself of this fact often. would the perfect boy leave you? therefore he has a MAJOR, deal-breaking flaw.

  15. Vicki says:

    ive had my heart broken.. it nearly killed me.. i didnt sleep i cldnt be on my own. it was hell..but now im with a lovely guy who i believe is the one.. time will heal your heart honey, i know it seems hard just take each day as it comes and it will get easier. try and keep busy and surround yourself with your friends and family.
    thinking of you. xx
    magpie-girl.

  16. Tights Lover says:

    I'm very sorry to hear this.

    Things will get better for you!

  17. stilettostetico says:

    So Maybe Easy to say BUT You Frankly have All my warm/sincere moral support Dear Shin .

    Amicalement, Antoine

  18. Mouthwash says:

    Oh Shin…

    I'm sorry baby. I'm sorry that you are having to go through this. Just let it all out. The days will get better again, and you're not going crazy, you're going through the process.

    I've had my heartbroken too; and it landed me in the hospital.I understand the pain that you must be going through, and I know that it will be a long road. Don't try and feel better right away- it will only frustrate you when you don't. Take your time. Lean on friends… I'm so sorry baby.

    As strange as it sounds, baking helped me. In the last week I've made so many things with the past week, I could stalk a grocery store.

    hugs and kisses

    Amber

  19. janettaylor says:

    Oh darling Shin,

    One day it will feel better. I know…

    X♥X♥

  20. tam says:

    Oh thats horrid, so sorry to hear your pain, guys have a lot to answer for I've felt that hurt and its not good.

    I hope your heart can be mended soon pretty girl x x

  21. yiqin; says:

    I am so sorry. I havent been feeling that good lately too.

  22. CC says:

    im sorry dear
    we've all been there
    it gets better
    (your too gorgeous to cry)
    xo

  23. Paperface says:

    Oh no, I'm so so sorry you're sad 🙁

    I know exactly what you're feeling and its a scary place to be. Trust me, if he broke your heart, he wasn't the one. Any guy that toys with love is not worth loving. Period.

    I wish there was something I could do to make you smile but for now you have to let your heart do what feels right. Even if that means crying all day.

    You're an amazing girl. Just remember that.

  24. Emmy says:

    You and me both, girl. Care to join my penis embargo?

    I think it's a little different considering he was my best friend and I wasn't romantically invested in him…but I think where I can really feel your pain is how much it hurts that they just choose not to care anymore.

    While I wish I could say it's all going to be better before you know it, I know it'll take me months at least to recover so I can't give you encouragement that I don't even expect from myself 🙂 My temporary solution? Hunker down with a massive bowl of ice cream in some cozy sweats and watch a few much needed chick flicks. You know that's what I'll be doing tonight!

  25. Wanderlusting says:

    Hey! I'm gonna email you – my previous bf did almost the exact same thing to me!!! I have stories and advice!

  26. Jacqueline says:

    I am so sorry to hear that you are feeling so down. There is nothing I can say to make you feel better really. In time it will be okay.

    xoxo

    FashionSnag

  27. Liya says:

    aw girl
    i am so so so sorry
    but you know what?
    you're a gorg, funny gal with lots to offer
    and you're gonna find someone better to rock your world
    you deserve it. hey listen
    i always go shopping to lift my spirits. altho i know you probs just wanna curl up and cry for awhile (which is totally normal and ok) you NEED to go out and get some fab outfits. won't heal you, but it will give you something to be distracted by

    xo

    myglitteringcreation.blogspot.com

  28. fashionable palette says:

    I just want you to know that I'm thinking of you. I recently have gone through a bad breakup…we dated for nearly 5 years. He's not seeing someone else and it is literally heart breaking. There are no words to describe the pain. Please know that you are not alone. And that he lost a wonderful girl. Take your time and heal, because it does take time. I hope you feel better soon. xx

  29. Tariro says:

    Thats really sad 🙁
    Love your blog and feel better!

  30. Pretty Witty says:

    I'm so sorry to hear about it. 🙁

    Affairs of the heart are never easy and really, that's what makes them so worthwhile. It might seem like the end of the world, but it isn't.

    By all means, cry. Break things, go nuts with shopping, binge on chocolate, stay under your covers. But there will come a time where you realise you are so much better than all of this. You will recover and become stronger because of it.

    Things will look up. Promise.

    xoxo

  31. Dylana says:

    I am so sorry to hear this. But I know that you are a smart, strong girl, and will make it through this hard time. Cry all the tears you have, and you will get stronger every day by staying positive! Best wishes to you!

    colormenana.blogspot.com

  32. Etrapar says:

    darling you need MUSIC…*.^
    kisses
    PS: "Why love if losing hurts so much? We love to know that we are not alone." ..but remember girl you have FRIENDS

  33. Zanita says:

    Oh no! I'm so sorry to hear this… Please rememeber that pain will pass and your life will bring great joy again. Don't let this negative time change your view on love and life! There's so much more in your future, you're a beautiful and promising star – believe it!
    Zanita xo

  34. Suzanne says:

    i feel so sorry for you. wish you the best!

  35. noura. says:

    Oh you poor thing…
    Don't be down.
    You're too wonderful to feel this way.
    If you need anyone to talk to, feel free to contact me:
    noura_sultani@asl.org
    I really hope you feel better.
    You're incredible!

  36. Carrie says:

    I'm so sorry to hear about how you're feeling. I can relate to feeling this way and I use to spend nights after nights crying over the same person. I don't know if anything I say will make things better but I wish you well and I hope you feel better soon. Take care!

  37. a frock a day says:

    Oh Shin… 🙁 I hope you feel better soon.

  38. AsianCajuns (Lauren) says:

    Oh Shin, I am so sorry to hear you are in such pain. I know what this feels like, and I always think the same thing- just for a guy. I had a similar moment this week too – the bf and I are going through a rough patch- and it does leave you exhausted, confused, frustrated and really hurt.
    Know that we are all thinking about you and sending you positive thoughts and strength!
    This too shall pass, Shin- I promise!
    xoxo, Lar

  39. havlitten says:

    i stopped by to enjoy some inspiring pics and what do i see: my girl is in pain.
    It might sound weird what i'm gonna say to you but you just have to endure.
    And it gets better with time. It has to.
    hugs

  40. emily says:

    aww… i'm so sorry. 🙁 i know there's not much i can do through a computer screen, but i really, really, hope you feel better soon. and whatever guy is stupid enough to let you go isn't worth it. he doesn't deserve you.

  41. Kristin says:

    I'm so sorry. I hope it gets better for you ASAP!

  42. Hanh, Life-in-Travel says:

    Oh honey,
    It's not easy. I understand and know your feeling.
    Be strong!!!and time will heal.
    xoxo
    Hanh

  43. janet says:

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  44. cocorosa says:

    oh no!! I hope you will feel better soon, it will take some time though 🙁 concentrate on other things and spent time with family and friends, lots of chocolate too 🙂

    I actually still havn't seen the vogue Girl Korea, it just arrived in Europe the day I came back in the USA… :/ so my mother scanned in the pages 🙂 I hope to get to see it soon 🙂

  45. June Paski says:

    i'm sorry to hear that, Hope you get better soon, I know is very hard when broken with someone who ever you love and trust, I was have the same situation with six months agoo and I can't stop crying, you should try to eat tons of chocolate, it's really help me

    xxx

  46. Susu Paris Chic says:

    Oh my dear, I wish I could be there right by your side just now. Believe in you, you'll make it. Your friends here are there for you! Draw courage from things you love, like fashion and living in a chic way. Start by having a walk on the beach, and a sweet glass of something you love.

    I nominated you for a Kreativ Fashion Blogger Award. When the time is right, go have a look on my blog.

    A huge hug from Paris!

  47. Karoline says:

    Oh, I feel sorry for you! Take your time, sweety. It will be better, I'll promise.

  48. Atenea says:

    I hope you are better 🙂 a lot of hugs pretty

  49. ninneta says:

    hope you feel much better. But, you just gotta meet few wrong guys before you find the perfect one.

    Hope you get better soon…

    kisses,

    ninneta

  50. Jo says:

    i'm soooooo sorryyyyyyyy that you're going through this….. i'm tried of crying over boys … so i understand what you're going through

  51. mom & son says:

    huh! sorry to hear about that.
    i hope you'll feel better soon
    and no more heartaches.
    take care, shin!

  52. loft in soho says:

    Oh Shin, I hope you feel better soon.
    A lot of hugs,

    xxx

  53. carlyjcais says:

    Oh, my heart goes out to you! Guys suck, that's all there is. Even if everything goes RIGHT and you end up with one forever, you still do your share of crying – with or without them.
    Stay strong!:-)

    xoxox
    Carly

  54. Friend in Fashion says:

    I'm sorry to hear that Shin – it will get better
    xoxo

  55. Miss Head Over Heels says:

    hang on girl.

  56. TIFFANY thegirlwithafeather says:

    Aw, I'm sorry you feel this way. I really hope you feel better! Take care lovely.

  57. jeannie says:

    omg, I'm so sorry hun. I hope you feel better soon. Hang in there =(

  58. ana b. says:

    :(((((((((((

    You're gorgeous and amazing and you will get through this. *Promise*

    Hugs!

  59. a cat of impossible colour says:

    I'm so sorry to hear this. It's so hard.

    Remember, though, that being so hurt means that you loved very deeply, that you have a lot of love to give, that you were not afraid to be open and vulnerable. All of those things mean that you will find love again, and it will be amazing.

  60. Ilse says:

    I feel very very sorry for you :< hope you'll feel better in time..

  61. Ellie says:

    you'll get past him. really.

  62. beckyxoxo says:

    oh dear i hope you get well soon ! i don't know what's the real problem , so all i can say is keep strong ! we're all here for you . 🙂 don't stop smiling , please !

  63. Smokey eyes says:

    take care sweetheart, you are gorgeous

  64. joelle van dyne says:

    aw sweetie i am so sorry. i wish there was something i could do! i hope you'll feel better soon. ~joelle

  65. Bella says:

    Sweetie, I'm so sorry… I'm sending you the biggest hug and the biggest laugh to get you back to smiling! xxx

  66. MJ says:

    Sweetheart, i know how it feels. Especially if you're still in love with him – I've been through that too. There's nothing original I can say that'll make you feel better: just keep away from him, spend lots of time doing exactly what you want, and surround yourself with friends. It gets easier, I promise.

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